Do it anyway
I did NOT want to wake up at 6 this morning. I am sore, my kidneys hurt, I woke up with a headache, and tbh I just didn’t want to.
But I put my feet on the floor at 6:03 AM anyway.
3 sets in my circuit training and my brain was screaming “You’ve gotten in 3 sets, if you quit now you can catch some more sleep before you have to wake up the kids.”
But I pushed through the other 3 sets and then added 10 reps to each set.
My arms were shaking, dripping sweat, and every molecule in my body just didn’t want to keep going - but I did it anyway.
From getting sober, all the way up to approaching 6 years of continuous sobriety - I cannot count how many things I didn’t want to do that I do anyway.
The problem used to be that I didn’t want to get high or drink anymore, didn’t want to hurt my family, didn’t want to remain enslaved to a lifestyle that birthed incomprehensible demoralization - but I did it anyway.
Today, I struggle with not wanting to walk through fear, not wanting to push myself harder in my workout, not wanting to be vulnerable, not wanting to rehash old pains - but I do it anyway.
Acknowledging areas where I fall short or rest on old patterns of behavior is painful.
Doing the right thing when I feel so justified in my emotions is painful.
Healing from trauma is painful.
Rewriting old narratives is painful.
Growth is painful.
But do it anyway.
What are the things that you just “don’t feel like doing” that you probably should?
I can guarantee that nothing changes if nothing changes.
It’s Friday and temps are dropping down to the low 30’s in South Florida - I’m not built for this weather. I may or may not have pulled out all the fleece clothing and stocked up on all the hot cocoa. #yolo
I hope all of you have a beautiful weekend.