Use your words
It’s 12:13 AM and I can’t sleep - it’s been a wild week.
My entire body is painfully tense, my mind is racing, and my spirit is exhausted.
So yeah, it’s one of those weeks.
I really don’t think I’m great at fully processing much of anything without putting pen to paper, or fingers to keyboard. Whatever - you get the point.
I have come to find that I am incredibly great at living in overdrive but I am also incredibly human.
In other words, I’ve been living in a constant state of survival mode but naturally, that only lasts for so long before the symptoms of my fight or flight response show up.
As I sit here - wide awake in bed - my self-reflective epiphanies are damning.
I have not been connected to my truth.
I have avoided confrontation like the plague.
I have found it difficult to advocate for myself.
I have tolerated more than I should.
I have allowed the opinions/needs of others to dismiss my very own wants and needs.
Life is hard, but it also can be so soft - when we step out of our own way.
What’s the catch?
Discrediting old core beliefs, allowing the ego to take the backseat, shocking the system with factual core beliefs, leading from a graceful heart, and standing in truth with a strong back.
I have - slowly but surely - found my truth and I’ve been unable to refute it.
There is no cavalry coming.
No one can undo the past.
My life has been handcrafted by me - one thought, decision, action at a time.
No one will ever advocate for me the way I advocate for myself.
The good news?
If I am accountable for the design and development of my life, then I also have the ability to change the course - at any point, any time.
The younger version of myself would be proud of the woman I’ve become.
Use your words, speak up, and never lose sight of your truth.
“What you allow, will continue.”